Do you like raisins? Not meeeeeeee!

Im kind of embarassed because Ive been whining like a little baby on here for the past few days. Its a really good way for me to vent, but I totally thought that nobody was even reading my blog anymore. Apparantly I was wrong, and now I feel like everyone thinks Im a nut case. Which I am these days, dont get me wrong, but maybe people think Im actually worse than I really am? I dont know, I am pretty bad right now, but trust me people, Im not gonna OD or anything. I feel like I just want to be alone to sulk in my own self pitty, but then when I actually am alone I get even more mad and depressed, but then when I go out around people it is so hard to force a smile or a laugh and pretend to be happy, so I dont really pretend that hard then I just come off as a stuck up brat, so I guess Im in a lose lose situation right now, I want to sleep for a loooooong time and just wake up when everything is normal and calm and stress free. I dont think that is going to happen any time soon so I need to come up with a better plan cuz the one I currently have ain't working so well. I read this article the other day about how stress can age you really fast so I have been examining my face in the mirror every night, and was terrified the other day when I noticed wrinkels around my eyes when I squint just so. Thats totally not a good sign so that just added a little more stress to my life which will add another wrinkel or two, and so the vicious cycle begins. Wonderful. At this rate I will look like a raisin in no time. A raisin with half blonde and half brown hair.